Friday, February 29, 2008
Gosh. I HATE being lectured about school all the time. It's like my whole life revolves around it. If you calculated all the things my mom talked to me about, school would take about 99% of it. My whole life is school, school, school. She doesn't care what the heck my opinions are about it. Every time she insists on "talking", she always tells ME to shut up after I keep talking. Then she lectures me. On and on on and ON. I'm SICK of it. Like my LIFE'S over if I don't get an A in everything. Or it's such a big sin to want to move to another high school. I hate this city and want to get away from it, and not only for school reasons. Why the hell should I tell her my personal reasons? Considering she couldn't care less about what I want. GEEZ. I wanted to hang up on her when she talked to me on the phone today. I wanted to have a wire phone so she could hear the slamming of the phone. But of course I didn't really do it. How could I have done? She would've just come straight home and KILLED me. I never talk back, never do any of that "bad" stuff.
It isn't fair. I see so much kids at my school getting C's, and THEY aren't getting 24/7 lectures, yelling, and punishments. Why the hell should I? EVERY SINGLE EFFIN DAY. It's school. I hate school in a different way other kids do. I hate it in that it takes everything away, and I can never have fun. I've been to one birthday party my entire life, and I've never hosted one. I've never actually even asked for anything. And now, the one thing I want is to move away from this stupid city and leave my entire childhood behind, and I'm not allowed to. I'm so sick of everything, gosh. At least other kids can yell back at their parents. I don't even dare to. Because touching my mom's bottom line is not something ANYONE would ever want to do.
I just wanna go far far FAR away and never come back, ever. As far the hell away as I can get.
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